It was only just a dream ;

I'll not be here, if not for you

2010-10-05T17:58:00.003+08:00

So i had my haircut last week with Xuan. She didn't cut though. Cause she wants to leave her fringe longer, hehe. I went to cut off my split ends and cause my hair was already really long. Felt kinda heavy.. My hair is no longer curly. Not even straight. Quite wavy now :D Am thinking of curling again though. Went Gary's place to cut! He will never disappoint me. Cut about 2 inches short and then have my hair blowed to look more curly and volumized :)

Went back to her house after having brkfast with her brother. :) Then we made jelly and cookies together for her b'day party at night. I wasn't feeling very well that day! So ended up goin home early aft the party.

I've watched the new episode of Vampire Diaries! It was so exciting omg. Damon (L). Support this fan made tumblr page! http://fuckyeahiansomerhalder.tumblr.com/ Damn hot, no? Bookmark it! Hahs. I love his eyes. They're soo gorgeous :]

I had a really weird dream last night. It was 'bout a guy that i knew a few years back. We're not talking anymore now. I don't think he can ever remember me anymore.. But in my dream, it felt so realistic, like he was just there. Like i met him again. I don't know when we'll talk again. I doubt it'll ever happen now. We were close before, but not now. Sighs. It's weird looking back into the past right? Sometimes it's just like a scar, somethings are just impossible to forget. I'm happy for him now. His life seems great :}

Exam is coming soon. 2010 is ending, School is ending. It's like 3 months left. Nervous for everything. Okay. Gonna stop here. :) Bio test tomorrow. Tatas.

2010-09-29T18:59:00.005+08:00

Hey. :) Hah haven't blog for so long. I miss blogging so much! :) Just realized there's lots of birthdays on this month. Hehe happy belated birthday to Chung yee and Claudia, bff :D (L) Hope you love the presents i gave you! Glad that your boyf is coming bck to kch soon. Have fun with him k! Got sick yesterday. Dk why. Woke up and felt so drowsy and caught flu and cough. Aft long hours in sch, caught headache / fever. Felt awful.. Aft sch i showered and went to sleep till late evening. And slept rly early at night. :) Feeling so mch better now. Can't wait to see my sister soon! She says she can't wait to watch Vampire diaries ! Aw, you btr love Damon aft watching it ;).

I just can't understand physics no matter how i try! Why's it so hard to understand? My grades are dropping. Sighs. I'm so distracted by other things instead. Gotta strive. Gonna be form 5 in a few months. Time flies and soon i'll be sitting for SPM. It's just like i js sat for pmr few days / months ago! why is this so :( *Growin old*

Kaila's Birthday is coming soon. This sat hehe. :D Hope to hav lotsa fun. Gonna have my hair cut this weekend. Gonna do chem hmrwk now. Will blog soon, Byebye. :D

♥ Cin

With my head held high.

2010-09-22T20:18:00.002+08:00

I know no matter what, I’ll be perceived as the cruel bitch who decided to let go of something others may never find in their entire lifetime in pursuit of more selfish needs.

We’ve walked an amazing journey together and it has made us both who we are today. I will not for one second trade the moments I’ve had with you for anything in the world, because I know I may never ever find them again. I know there is a lot of growing up for me to do and I know I will continue falling and hurting myself in the process. I took a huge risk when I let go of the love of my life, but I will walk this lonely journey ahead with my head held high.

Thank you, for giving me the best years of my life. I know somewhere in my heart, there will always be a place that has your name engraved on it.

- Quoted from Sweatlee.

This is how i really feel right now. It's hard, but i will keep on going. I will get through.

Injuries self-inflicted just to be famous?

2010-09-18T17:56:00.002+08:00

This is completely ridiculous. I was pitying this young-aged women a few weeks ago through the news. It said that she was walking outside starbucks after buying coffee and a black woman came to her and offered her to drink or something, and the next second she got acid poured onto her face. She wore sunglasses on that particular day so her eyesight was saved. She suffered second-degree burns and had to undergo surgery. Her incident had gained world-wide attention ! And there was even a facebook page created specially for her, like "Send hugs to Bethany Storro".

And the IRONY is that it was all a hoax. She admitted that the injuries were self-inflicted. As in she did this to her own face!! Just to get famous? Somemore she suffer from Spinal Meningitis as a child and still risk it to play this kinda trick on herself? No wonder i was like so suspicious when she was interviewed with her face all bandaged and yet still have that happy-go-lucky behaviour. I thought she was really so kind-hearted. If it happened to me, i swear i would cry my heart out. Lol. Surprisingly, it was all fake one lor. Somemore no evidence. She admitted she did it cause she was gonna star in Oprah Winfrey show and she pulled out because she didn't wanna go on. Crazy. So pretty and yet made herself ugly for attention & to be famous.

And now there's this facebook page that says Send Bethany Storro to Jail. Lol.

2010-09-14T20:05:00.007+08:00

I seriously have no idea why it took so long to load a page in mozilla. Anyways i just changed my blogskin. Pinkish love. (L) My internet has been really slow recently. My bro finally sent my comp for repair at oneTJ.. for the second time! Let's just hope it doesn't screw up like the first time. :) Tried fixing it like reformatting everyth before and nothing seemed to work. :/ I miss playing audi. I miss cff, like a lot. I remember playing audi at Tik's house during raya. I forgot my password ! Stm totally. But i managed to log into my sub acc. I seriously can't remember my main one. Tried more than 3 attempts & never got it right! Lol. Oh well, but i played super badly. Like not familiar with the keys anymore. And i miss the people there hell lots :) Goofin around and stuff !

Sch is very tiring now..There's always like a pile of homework waiting to be done. Esp Addmaths! So there's not much time to slack or anyth! Addmaths teacher just postponed the test to tomorrow. And there's also physics test tmr. 4 periods filled with tests and it's like the whole morning! Saddening, ain't it? Lol And aft break there's assembly again. Let's just pray tmr's weather is cool and not humid. So it isn't so bad. Wednesday is an ultra-sian day.

Still waiting for bi to return home from school. :) It's alr 8.15 now. So late eh? Where'd he been to? Hmm. Will just wait for his call later bah. Back to studying alr. <3

I told you so :)

2010-09-02T19:29:00.005+08:00

My comp is still not repaired yet. :( How long do i needa wait? Miss my comp so badly. Anyways. Last Monday Clau and I baked muffins! (again) hehe. And it sorta failed cause the flour was not enough. We had to bake for Leo charity sale at Salvation army. Choc chip muffins, yum :]

Got you hungry yet ? :D

Last Tuesday, I fetched Cyn to spring during the afternoon. Met with Brenda and tracy. Haven't seen her for a very very super long time. I'm so glad i saw her again. Brought back the memories somehow :] It was actually supposed to be a surprise. I'm not sure if it was a surprise for her? Lol :} We all met up in Secret Recipe.

We also started talkin bout our past. Like how there used to be only the 5 of us. Cyn, me, Tracy, Bren and Kim :) Too bad Kim did not make it that day. I sure missed her craziness.. But it was okay. Had a good laugh. I ordered New York Cheese cake, Bren & Cyn ordered some pie and Trace ordered some kind of meatball noodles? Haha idk. :) After that, we walked around & went Food Bazaar to have Igloool :).

W Cynthia :)

:)

Wanted to buy Terrance a farewell gift. We saw a rly cute card at MPH and thought we should buy it. & we bought it! Surprisingly we saw him at MPH too. So blur of him to not have seen us! LOL.

+ a cute magnet that says 'Never Give Up' ! ;)

Followed Bren's car back to her house. She got changed and we fetched Karen, then head to some supermarket nearby to buy food for potluck. Karen & bren bought shrooms while Cyn and i shared $ to buy drinks :} Party was held at Haidee's house.

We had barbeque! Potluck & Swimming at the evening till night. ;) Awesome night.

Barbequeing Pork ribs and corn ! :)

Forcing Joshua into the pool LOL !

Joshua pole dancin ? ;)

At last he was pushed into the pool anyway, LOL. Luckily he knew how to swim! The pool was freaking deep okay. ;x

Idk if they are pushing me or whether i was pushing them both lolol

It was getting dark, so swimming time! :) ( I don't know how, so i was practically soaking and jumping in the water for hours), But the feeling was great :P.

Cyn and i :)

LOL @ Chik Sheng

Had an awesome Merdeka Day :} and i'm sure everyone else had fun too. 4B (L) Terrance came to find us in our class aft sch today! Omg :) Missed him so badly. He came to see us before he depart. How sweet is that. Waved him the last goodbye. We will miss you ! :) Definitely.

Gonna have Bio test tomorrow and Holidays are starting! Who can wait? :/. Lol!

P/s: missing baby. :(

After all the things we've been through, i miss everyth about you

2010-08-29T18:19:00.010+08:00

Heyy. Woke up at 10 plus this morning. Bathe and went down for breakfast with my bros and aunty, she came for a visit :). Around 11, i called Xuan if she wanted to have her hair cut as i wanna cut my front hair. It was kinda long already. She said okay. She wanted to cut at Premier 101, so i went to her house around 12 and her bro fetched us to some salon. LOL i don't even rmb the name.

Anyways, we had our front hair cut and aft that, Cyn asked us to join her at Spring to watch movie. So we went first, since it was still kinda early. :( Suddenly cyn couldn't make it so it's only the two of us left. :x

Kokoberry's Ice cream rainbow :)

Food ! Yes i eat more than xuan :3 - shy -

xuannie :DD

She said i look like a boxer wearing this :[ A BOXER. Really meh ?

Overall, we had a good time :} Thanks xuan for today ! HAHA (L) :D

Life is short, but it moves so fast. Hang on and enjoy the ride. And when someone comes along with whom you enjoy spending the ride with, hold on tight :)

Merdeka / National day & Terrance's farewell .

2010-08-28T21:37:00.004+08:00

Our class had our merdeka performance yesterday at sch :) it was awesome. Everything went smoothly. I'm so proud of you guys ! Foxy 4B (L) Although we got 2nd place, we're still happy about it. Guess the hardwork paid off.

Pics by Bren :]

Cikgu Govin ! :D

Cikgu Anita :) , she's so pretty.

Pius poser. LOL

Hair done by Bren (: Very chinese ey ?

Sexy Cyn ;]

Was nervous during the performance & i was scared i messed up coz i'm in both in acting & dancing, but i'm glad everyth went nicely. Grats 4B!

Change & came home. Happy and tired! (: Like my face stickers done by eli ? Lol :x

Had outing at 7 plus for Terrance's farewell :( Met at Kenny Roger's. Aft that, went kbox :) We'll miss you Terrance , take care when you're there and rmb to come visit us sometime. All the best tall dude ;)

Aw. love our class max. :]

2010-08-25T21:10:00.002+08:00

Just added a song on my blog :D I really love this song by Michael Buble. It's really sweet & beautiful. Felt so tired when i came home today. My body felt so restless. Just wanted to sleep. LOL. My legs felt so tired! :) I can't wait for National day. We'll do our best okay ? It's alright if we can't win or whatever, at least we tried our best & most importantly, had fun. hahha.
I really hate anonymous messages when they never mention their names or sth. :/

Kkay. gonna do proj. Lazy to blog. bai bai :)

2010-08-15T22:42:00.002+08:00

I'm scared.

This love is becoming hatred..

What am i doing ?

2010-08-12T20:03:00.000+08:00

2010-08-09T22:20:00.003+08:00

Recently addicted to chinese songs by Wenyin. Most of her songs are so soothing to listen to :D Watched The Last Song starring Miley Cyrus. Not bad :) Quite romantic and cried cause it was kinda sad. I cry in every movie i watch. That's so ridiculous right? Anyways. Hope episode 10 of pretty lil liars will come out tmr. Excited~ Haha & vampire diaries, next month. Damon (L). Hope season 2 could be more thrilling and not as scary as season 1. I hate it when they have to twist their neck off or suck their blood -_-. I had to cover my face with my pillow or forced to ask my grandma to watch with me.

Reached home nearly 6 today cause of national day practice. It's so tiring D:
There are so many things i wanna do but so lil time. Sighs. I don't even know what i want.

I'm craving for good food :P

Xuan, good luck for tomorrow. :D I'm sure you will do well during your performance. Don't panic, hehe.

Randomly blogged cause i'm bored. Back to studying :) bye x

The days feel like years when i'm alone

2010-08-08T19:48:00.003+08:00

Here's an update as i didn't blog for a week or so. My comp was spoiled few weeks ago, so i brought it to the hospital at OneTJ to have it fixed. Two days later, he contacted my bro and told him that there was nothing wrong with the RAM, just the heatsink that was too dirty. (i am so unclean, HAHA) . So the technician cleaned it & i went to collect my CPU the next day. So when i started using my comp again, it failed on me again~ :( The blue screen kept appearing. The technician cheated my money, sigh. 20 bucks gone for nothing.

Currently using my bro's old laptop now which keeps lagging, but it's better than nth yeah? :) National day is in 2 weeks time i think? It's so soon. I hope we'll do well during the comp. I'm sure the hardwork will pay off. Recently, i always hope for the weekends to come soon. Feel so reluctant to go to school everyday. All the lessons and work, i don't really enjoy them at all. Just one and a half more year, i'm getting out from sec school. There was a pidato competition in sch last friday. Karen won, Grats :) you deserved it.

On sat, went Boulevard with Clau and Xuan. It was fun, but i was late ! I reached there around 4 and bout 6 i had to go home. :[ Baby went to batam on Sat too. I forgot to reload, so i didn't text him for the whole weekend. Sorry baby. Also, went for the Leo Joint installation at Crown Square today ! Left early though. Went to premier 101's Delizze! Never went there before. Bought the cream puffs and pies there. Yummy (Y) . Will bring baby there next time, hahha :) . There are so many places where i wanna bring him go next time. I just wish he was here.

I feel like going kbox again ! Who wants to come ? :D

My happy ending.

2010-07-31T19:44:00.008+08:00

Disected rats during bio lesson that day! It was so frightening cause the mice was so cute and we didn't wanna harm it.

Disgusting and sad, right? :/ It was a fun experience but sinful.

Tuition :D !

Didn't feel well last night, stomach hurts real bad. So went to sleep early and bi called me in the middle of the night hahha and i think i sounded grumpy and didn't bother bout what he was saying. Sry bi :x

Went Home Of Peace today for Leo club :} helped to clean the place & visited the old people. It was quite fun i guess. Yeo Wen fetched us there. It was freaking far cause it was like 10th mile! At last, her father couldn't fetch us back, we waited for 1 hour plus so at last, i called my bro and he fetched us to Spring instead :} .

Went to kfc for lunch! Yums. Aft that went kbox with hx. :D hahs. wish bi was here. I wanna go shopping badly. :(
Tired now. buhbyes.

2010-07-25T20:48:00.007+08:00

Will this come true ?

Everything's okay now :) I'm really happy with it. I'm back with baby. Thanks guys for being there for me during that crucial period. I felt really empty. I admit that time was pretty tough for me. But friends made me feel much better, cause they cared :]. I'll cherish this bi, i promise. I'm sorry for what i caused. So glad to receive your sweet messages again. I've missed them! :) I'll cherish everything now. Can't wait to meet you again. Very soon right ? I miss you :D.

Anyway, went for the Kch international Dance festival at Sheraton yesterday. Gotta say it was good! Just that my table was at the side, so the view wasn't really that nice la. But still good. :D i loved the Power Dance group. It was so romantic :) I wasn't feeling that well last night too. When i came home, felt like i have a really bad flu ._.

Currently playing sims 3. Thanks bro for helping me dwl it for free :) It's really addictive. LOL but can get boring, cause it's like you'll always be repeating the same steps. Also, it's a never-ending game. Lol, but my sim characters are old alr, so nvm! Haha play till they poof bah :)

Disappointment. I get disappointed really easily. Even my temper. Gotta admit it's really horrible. But i always kept it inside. I really hate this feeling. The feeling of hiding everything inside and when you're on the verge of exploding. Got really disappointed yesterday, at someone. Why can't you just keep to your words? Why must you disappoint me at the end. Making me so anxious and kept me waiting. You wasted my time. Just hope you won't do that again. Hope you don't fail on me again. It hurts somehow..

2010-07-20T21:13:00.008+08:00

I guess it takes time .. for every sad things to heal :). Hope it faster does. You asked me to forrget you..I know it won't be easy, but i'll try my best. It's really tiring, not talking to you like how i used to. It's weird that you're online w/o speaking to me at all. It's weird knowing that i felt so empty after you left, knowing that we won't be talking for a pretty long time.. But i guess this is the only path we have left. To just act like nothing happened and just forget each other. But inside my heart, i still believe.. that there's still a special place meant for you.. but it is gradually covering up as we drive apart everyday. I really hope you can be here or be beside me now to hear what i have to say to you, a message that i want to tell you face to face, but that's never going to happen now. I know that. I will start moving on w/o you. It's time to let go, yeah?

Anyway.. I've been sleeping very early for the past few days. Between 9 - 10, Super early right? Always getting tired. Haha don't know what's wrong with me. It's only 9 now and i feel tired alr. Heading to bed early again i guess. :) Have book checking tomorrow for sch. :( Why did i agree on teacher choosing me? LOL.

Watched Vampire diaries last week. Took 2 weeks to finish watching season 1 and vivian took like 3 days? HAHA. We all have a really bad crush on Ian Somerhalder :), he's so cute when he acts. Can't wait for season 2 to be out :).

Goodnight.

2010-07-19T19:06:00.006+08:00

Have you ever felt this way ? Most of the time i come across quotes and everytime i read them, i will never understand what it's trying to say. But now i actually get it. Because i've been patiently waiting for something that might never happen and it's getting harder for me to give up when it's everything i ever wanted to have.

I never thought that i could be so devoted to you, when i was the first who decide to give up on our rs, that was previously so strong. And now i'm trying to save it, but it i know nothing is gonna change what happened between us. I just told you that there's nothing we can do now but move on. You agreed and repeated what i said. Why does it hurt, knowing that after so long being together, at the end of the day we have to give up ? I blame myself, because i caused all this at first. I know that i've been very unreasonable throughout this relationship. I admit that i often have moodswings for no reason and tend to affect your mood nearly every single day. I thought giving us space for a little while wouldn't do any harm, but it certainly has. I was wrong. This space had worsen everything.

And now everything's gone. All the times we shared will remain as memories. You were the best for me, the person i cherished a lot :). I'm really sorry for what i've done. I'm sorry i couldn't hold to the promise. I now realize that it's too late to want you back. You once told me that i will regret if i gave up on this. You were right. I am.

I can't feel your bullying / teasing / naggings anymore. I miss that, a lot.
If it wasn't for me, we wouldn't have to feel this pain ..

Words can't explain how much ily. Thanks for everything.

放不下

2010-07-18T13:58:00.003+08:00

你好嗎
你的夜是不是跟我的一樣漫長
是不是
還把我給你的愛好好戴在手上
要堅強
我常常對著鏡子裡的人大聲講
雖然說
孤獨的想一個人好像一種懲罰
msn上太多的路人甲
偶爾你也該上來說說話
想著你的溫柔
想著你的模樣
我放不下

都說過了再見
我們各自飛翔
各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎
放開愛會心慌
神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你那麼傻
可以後侮嗎

2010-07-10T20:01:00.004+08:00

Went to spring with ying hui, zu and 2 other girls today, i forgot their names lol :(. I felt that i haven't went out with zu for such a long time, thanks for inviting me :D hehe. Had secret recipe for lunch. I had oreo cheese cake, Zu had lasagna and yh had fish? HAHA :3 Zu was so noisy and hyper! She slept at 2 and like woke up at 8 and yet she was still so awake. Creepy :X. Eclipse was totally full so we decided to watch despicable me. The kids were so cute and funny! Somehow if you ask me to choose between a horror movie or a comedy, i would prefer comedy. Isn't laughing so much better than being scared ? :/.

After the movie, i realized my top and shorts had blue stains! I think it was cause of my bag. My bag wasn't wet though, nvm. And i even planned to buy a top to change, so we walked around and zu and yh helped me..Soon, i realized it wasn't worth it to buy another shirt just cause i dirtied mine. So we went to kbox after that & yeehwa joined us :D hehe. Felt tired to sing, Sorry zu T_T. i know how much you looked forward to kbox-ing. LOL, & some of us felt rly tired to sing.

Anyways i'm happy i didn't spend so much today :} i'm like a spendthrift right? All of you who knows me will say so. I hear you guys saying that to me all the time. I'm sorry i'm a girl who spends money prodigiously and who is extravagant and recklessly wasteful.

Gonna watch movie now. Bye.

2010-07-07T15:43:00.004+08:00

I think this song is pretty nice :). So soothing, haha. 2 more days till exams are over. Had eng paper and bm essay today. Can't seem to study chem. Alr reached home 3 hours ago and all i did was rot & rot :x I always wish i never gave up so easily, but i can't seem to do that. :/. Heard kenric is back from aussie for 2 weeks. Cyn's birthday this sunday :}, Happy birthday eve twinnie. ♥ My internet is freaking slow these days! It's so gay right now :(

Feeling super bored now ):

What's the point of trading what you have now with what you want ?

Cries in a distance ,

2010-07-02T23:00:00.008+08:00

Hello :) How long have i not post ? haha, since forever right. My blog is dying. Been busy with exams. I didn't do well, again. Sigh. Have you ever felt like you kept trying but ended up failing all the time till you don't feel like trying anymore? :(. But i won't give up.. Can't wait for exams to be over next Friday. That's like one more week? D: Recently got addicted to playing fb games, idk why. I like virtual games a lot. Heh, i'm so similar to my sis (: We used to be crazy over sims a long time ago! :)

Currently rotting at home aft chem tuition. My eyes were falling asleep then but now i feel so wide awake. Weird :/. Anyways, i can't wait for Eclipse to be out. Gonna have a movie marathon aft exams, shop & definitely not forget my twinnie's bday :D:D.

Okay.Bye (:

GO BRAZIL ! :)

2010-06-16T19:22:00.002+08:00

Holidays are ending really soon. I totally enjoyed myself till i forgot bout my studies. LOL, but i did revise a lil, so it's not that bad :) Spent a lot of $ during the hols eventhough i promised myself i won't spend so much anymore. But, I spent on food and i gained weight :{ , it's terrible. Went to Spring a couple of times already, getting sick of that place :( Going there again tomorrow. Feel like going to school and yet i'm also dreading to because of the people whom i dislike to face.

I can't seem to trust just anyone. Words are just words. Sometimes they don't mean what they say and it hurts when they do what they tell you they won't. How am i supposed to trust you ?

Once upon a time ,

2010-06-13T21:22:00.002+08:00

I saw the prettiest perfect rainbow :)

Singapore .

2010-06-09T20:19:00.005+08:00

Just came back from singapore yesterday! Have been there for only 3 days. Actually i planned to surprise him that night bout my arrival, but he kept calling me asking where i was cause i never onlined and text him. LOL. Should have offed my phone the whole day, but i also didn't feel good bout hiding it. (: So he found out and we met around 7pm. Haha he bought me a cute rose thingy :D but i think it's gonna wilt soon? LOL, Anyways, we went out for dinner together and waited for my sis and bro to arrive sg. I had lotsa fun cause we went to universal studio the next day & i really enjoyed it though it was totally crowded! Gotta admit we waited more than we played. Wanted to play more but it rained and i was quite upset i think. :/

I'm glad i have spent so much time with bi these few days. He kept making me laugh and all, i still teared when we had to part, but in my heart i'm really really contented :') He surprised me at the airport although i asked him not to come. Cause i didn't want him to spend anymore money. Silly baby :} He made made me realized i was so important, and it really touched me.

You are so sweet to me, & i'll never forget that.

Wonderful 6 days (:

2010-06-05T18:12:00.002+08:00

Feeling rather tired now. Going out to eat soon, but having the urge to blog about baby's trip here in kuching. I remember we kept counting down the days till he comes and we were both so excited to see each other again. (: His flight was brought earlier and he was reaching in the morning instead of the night. But when he reached, something happened and i couldn't go and fetch him from the airport.. and since he could not contact me through singtel, i didn't knew where he was. I was so anxious to see him that i didn't care and just took a cab to his hotel hoping he was there. But he wasn't ): His aunty called and told me he took a cab to my house! Silly dear! So i had to cab to my house and even forgotten to pay for the cab fare once i saw him. :( .

This post is gonna be picture-ful and rarely any words, as i'll let the pictures do the talking! :) hehe, since you guys wanted me to update my blog ^^

At my house. He bought me a couple tee, it's so cute! Belongs to you :3

He bought me this cute domokun handphone pouch from spring! Have been wanting this for very long alr (:

I remember we played badm together (: it was so fun, haha i kept laughing at his stupid actions. LOL.

Went Hilton to find our favourite cake, but it was out of order, so we orded marble cheese :(

Ice blended vanilla caramel. :) So yummy. Bi and i shared.

Pindy! :) Our daughter.

Damn cute! haha :D

HAHAH :D

On the last day, we went to Spring. (:

Before we went to Kbox with Zu and Yh, we painted this.
He painted the female one and i painted the male! At the end, we exchanged (: !
I think i painted nicer lor, hehee.

So cutee, right? :D

After kbox, sent him to airport .. :( He surprised me with a bouquet of chocs! Thanks zu for helping. (: It was really sweet. Who would even eat those chocs ? haha. I won't! It's too pretty.

^-^

I had to go earlier as his departure was retimed until 5.40pm, which was supposed to be 4 plus. I left at 3.40, i still remember. :) Called bi for very long until 5 pm.. Cried a lot cause i missed him lots. :') Thanks dear for cheering me up.

Here's a vid i did for bi :) !

:) hehe. I know we're gonna meet real soon. 6 months more! Hold on to me kay, baby. 11.02 pm now. Very tired as i haven't bathe .. :( Really miss your cute face, your smile, your sillyness, your laugh, your everything. Thanks for treating me so well, i feel so blessed & contented with you. Thanks for being with me, and for being my dearest. (: i love you bi.

Imma let you down .

2010-05-26T21:10:00.002+08:00

I am so tired now. Typing this while waiting for baby to on. :) Missing my parents lots. HAHA. They've been gone for nearly a week already. Not used to it. Anyway, school's been killing me. Had Chem test on Monday, History on Tues and physics this morning. 3 days in a week! Don't think i did well for any of them, but i'm glad today was the last test. Holidays start after tomorrow. But exams start straight after holidays. Makes me feel like the long break is still not enough. But right now, i'm looking forward to meeting baby and making his trip superbly memorable. Hehe :D

Okay, he onlineed. Byee.

Scary .

2010-05-19T19:25:00.003+08:00

I cut my hair :(

Had bio experiment in the lab today and that's where the scary part comes in. Cause our experiment needed fruit juices. So we were squeezing fruit juices lor lol. And it was really hard to squeeze apple juice out as there was no blender in the lab, so we asked pius to help us squeeze juice out from the apples instead. Claudia was holding the beaker while i was holding the filter. I think he squeezed or pressed too hard :/ , till the beaker broke into pieces, more like burst la and pius was the first to get injured. Silly clau tried blocking the glass from breaking with her left hand, making herself got injured the worst. I dragged my hand away quickly once i felt pieces of glass on my hands. In a few sec, i turned to Clau and was so shocked to see her hand filled with blood! Like the whole hand man :( Could tell teacher was damn shocked too so she tried to stop her hand from bleeing, but failed. Her hand was like filled with blood also & clau was shaking badly. I saw blood stains on my hands and thought it was hers cause her hand was bleeding non stop. After she went to sick bay, i saw more blood flowing out so i went to wash my hands and realized i was cut too :/ . But it's not so serious, just big cuts la :D

Get well soon clau..you always make me worry! :(

2010-05-15T23:38:00.006+08:00

Feeling super tired now! As i think i've been out the whole day alr. Just finished skyping with baby. I accidentally made the oink sound just now and he bullied me. Grr D: ! Anyway..woke up really early, did some homework at the office and met kaila at boule in the afternoon.

Shopped awhile and came across a really cute keychain, so we bought the same one and hang it on our bags.

Bought this for me and dear. Quite cute right ? :x

Oh i also received a call from sissy and she told me she bought my hair accessories for like $2 each. LOL I can't wait for you to come back! :) Had kfc around 4 plus. Went home around 6. Saw yeehwa there! At first i heard someone calling my name. Next, i saw her coming out from somewhere. LOL she was having promo on masks. Sry i didn't buy them cause i really spent all my $ ler. There's a big whole in my pocket now :( I don't wanna spend so much anymore.

Had so much fun with Kaila cause she always notice weird things! And it's really funny. HAHA.

Okay off to sleep. bb :D

I really wish sometimes you can just keep your mouth shut . You don't know how hurt i feel .

Fall in love

2010-05-12T22:56:00.004+08:00

Just got back from Clau's house. Feeling damn tired as my eyes are closingggg :} Had fun just now, she transferred lotsa games into my thumbdrive, HAHA gonna play them when i have time. Having a tough time to cope in sch, cause i can't really understand lotsa stuff. Trying my best alre. I've been sleeping early for the past few days, but my eyes kept hurting when i woke up :(

My cute slippers. We both wore one side :D

When my bro was fetching me home from sch, we nearly banged into a dog and it got so frightened it ran to the other side and got knocked by another car. I think it got injured badly :/ Damn sad okay.

Her puppy is mad cute right? :>

Received a call from dear just now saying he's extending 1 more day for his trip here !! :D I can spend more time with him now. May be it's meant to be ? HAHA. Can't wait la. Hope nothing bad happens though. Really looking forward to it :)

Tell us our project is awesome because we are over-satisfied with it. LOL

Okay, Off to sleep. Gdnight ! It's currently 11.11pm now. Dear i hope you know how much i miss you.

Happy Momma day :)

2010-05-09T20:53:00.007+08:00

Woke up pretty early this morning.. Mum woke me up. If i hadn't forgotten, she was trying to cover me with my blanket saying it was too cold. I woke up smiling :} She said she was gonna leave the house to buy something to eat at home & decided to left the room. Before i forgot, i wished her Happy Mother's Day. She said thanks, and ended with "I love you" :} It was touching for me cause she hardly says those 3 words unless she really meant it. :)

Showered after that and went online to check my facebook. Saw dear's message asking me to on, haha so we skyped. Got really pissed for some reason..but after a while, i returned back to my normal self. :D Dear had to prepare for his project with his friends later, so i joined my family to eat seafood in the afternoon. Yum :x , reached home around 4 pm. Went to the junk to have dinner around 7! I lovee the food there and i never realized how big it was until today ._. I couldn't even remember how to get out. LOL. Saw Josh and Karen there. Josh asked me to meet him somewhere. Since the last time i saw him was years ago, i went down to meet him and we chat for awhile. It was nice seeing you again yeah. (:

Ending my post here. School tomorrow :} Mad tiredddddd. :D

Life's meaningful

2010-05-08T20:15:00.008+08:00

Haven't been blogging much, cause i thought it was wasting my time and i felt so lazy. But i totally have the blogging mood now :D .. For the past few days, i got really upset with myself and wonder why am i not perfect and why am i different than other people, but the fact is that we're all different in our own ways and we should just be satisfied with what we have, cause there are others who are not as fortunate as us. :}

I keep watching videos in youtube that i've favourited, cause they're all meaningful. Went for training this morning just to warm up. But i am so gonna get trashed during the tournament. HAHA who cares :D , i wanted to take part for the fun of it. I've got a new maid at home now and i just feel like she's not suitable and feel uncomfortable whenever she's around.. But i don't really mind, just that i would prefer my old one. Slept the whole afternoon cause i was too tired. Skyped so long with bi today. ilovehim. Few more days till we can get to see each other. ♥

Enjoy life the way it is right now. Thinking negatively won't bring you anywhere, so just keep going. We're all humans, we have feelings. Let them judge you, don't let their words break you. If we live our entire life to prove other people wrong, then we're not living our own life.

I only intend to walk upon the face of Earth once. I live life for myself and the ones I care about. Should you really care what others think? Should this really lead you to question yourself? You are so much stronger than you think.

Mind your own business .

2010-05-03T21:04:00.003+08:00

Have you ever understood how she felt before saying such things? How would you know how it feels like when you're not even under a condition like hers now? Wait patiently then, one day you will, & you'd regret saying stuffs like that. I'm not cursing you, but i totally believe in karma :) Don't be rude, that just shows how immature and narrow-minded you are to think that way. All you want is just people to side you. It's not even her fault okay? Even if you wanted to vent your anger, you didn't have to show it in public. It only showed how mean you could be. And now i finally knew your true colours :)

Sometimes in this world, your friends would somehow betray you, even one of your closest ones, just for the sake of fame.

Remember ,

2010-05-01T18:55:00.003+08:00

Have been neglecting my blog for quite some time already. Very lazy to update :/ Anyways, celebrated vivian's birthday on Monday :)

It was so fun celebrating it at her house :} Happy belated viv !

Yesterday, watched Iron man II with Zu and Baba! It was such a nice movie, laughed at the hilarious parts & my heart kept pounding during the exciting parts. 5/5 .

:D Kay, don't have time to update alre. ciaos <3

Never give up ,

2010-04-24T18:33:00.003+08:00

Whenever it's raining, i would prefer staying at home rather than going out. I don't know why, may be it's cause i feel so much safer being at home. It's raining now :) ! I don't feel good for a few days already, so i've been eating more and more, not because i'm hungry, but that's what i always do when i'm pms-ing or whatever. Wish someday someone could just tape my mouth! :| , just reached home not long ago.

Why can't i be like everyone else ?

Down to earth ,

2010-04-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

Praying everyday. I'm really scared. Really upset now, cause i really hate things that don't go my way. I can't seem to do my things properly, i can't seem to study & I can't think properly. I feel more tired than usual. :/

Anyways, Clau came back to school today, after missing school for like 3 days? Missed her lots & lots. When i saw her, my mood totally changed. :) Haha. Hope she would feel better soon :( I miss her being so hyper and all. Don't forget you still have me to help you alright? :} Don't pressure yourself, stop crying silly ! Be strong. Everything will be okay ♥

For every minute you are angry, you lose sixty seconds of happiness.
I kept saying this in my head to stay happy all the time :) It kinda helps.

Happy birthday to me (:

2010-04-17T23:30:00.013+08:00

Yesterday 16/4/10

Yee hwa and Zu asked me out to Spring after school. When i saw them, i quickly scared them from behind. LOL luckily i got the right person. Imagine scaring strangers. How would they react? :x Anyway, we watched Being human, Jack neo's. Really liked it. Rating it 5/5 ! {: After the movie, we went Sushi King for dinner.

That was the first time i didn't know of any surprise. Yh, Zu, both of you were really good in acting. I thought you guys really forgot about my birthday lor :X

Suddenly the lights were turned off, and a cake with candles was brought out. I asked ''Whose birthday?'' And my bro said ''yours''. I was shocked :x , it was an oreo cheesecake from secret recipe :D

The gan dong me. HAHA

Loved the present, thanks for making that day so special for me ! :} So touched, really. Love you guys kao kao :}

Today 17/4/10
Actual birthday. Felt so excited & kept smiling all morning when i received so many texts and 100 over fb wishes :) thanks.

Met up with Kim, Viv & chung at spring first. Kim & viv surprised me with a balloon that has the word B*** on it, so adorable :} They forced me to bring it everywhere lor! D: Cyn joined us later. We watched When in Rome ! nice movie too.

Happy faces :)

Why are you guys all pointing at me ? :x

We went to starbucks to have our fav caramel cream! (:

Sisters :D

Hats {:

Headed to the junk around 7!
The place looked so tranquil.

When i found out that every single dish cost nearly 50 bucks, i stoned! I felt so horrible, wasting his money like that. If only i knew the price ! What touched me most is that .. my bro said , '' Don't worry about it, as long as you're happy it's good '' :) And when he had to pay the bill, he didn't wanna tell me the total ! :( I'm sorry bro.

Caesar salad .

Rib-eye steak .

So that was the end. Cyn followed me home and when her car reached, she dropped a letter behind :)

it was so sweet of you. Thanks cyn (:

Guys, thanks for such an awesome day. It made me felt so blissful and appreciated. Without you guys, there won't be today. The surprises were great. I can't put them into words how much you all mean to me. And dear, thanks too, for making that vid. HAHA i love you ! :')

& thanks popo for your red eggs! ^_^

1 am now, time to doze off :)

2010-04-15T14:49:00.004+08:00

Seriously man. Some audi ppl really have to control their attitude. I just randomly quick enter a room and ready. The song was 200bpm and while playing, i was first, then this guy asked me to fk off. It's just a game only, need so serious anot. He said like more than 5 times lo. Then i asked him if he was referring to me, he say 'i got say you meh?' . Left the room then used -Cindy to enter the room, he said nice ring. I said 'you not asking me to fk off le?' He was like 'DIAO, RING BIG NIA MA. SO?? LOL' So immature ._.

Came home from school early as my eye hurts, i can barely keep it open, though i slept at 10 & woke up at 7. Still felt like it wasn't enough. Why? :(

2010-04-13T19:31:00.004+08:00

Today. Effort went down the drain. Then quarreled with a friend. I used to trust her lots, but i guess it's gone. Got pissed cause of an incident. Realized i lost about 200 bucks, & i'm suspecting a friend of mine for stealing it. Brother kpkb just now. I'm alre dead tired when i reached home. And now, i feel like tearing my mind apart.

Eenie meenie miney mo

2010-04-12T22:39:00.009+08:00

I really have no guts to face you. I don't know what to do, kay. I feel so dumb. Just hope this feeling could fade away, really hate it lots. Felt so sleepy in school. I only slept at 11pm and felt half dead today! :( Results ain't that good either.. Anyways, have been talking a lot with dear these days, discussed about our uni, etc. Really hope it will come true :} I wanna end up in the same uni with you. Sorry i made you sad ytd. Thanks sis for talking to us today and made us realize what actually matters most. Guess i shouldn't have judged the future :) Anxious to see baby next month :D , HAHA i want my present :x. jk la, i wanna see you badly. I miss the feeling of spending time with you rl. Tell me why i'm so addicted to you :p ?

So cutee !

Off to bed.

2010-04-11T17:23:00.005+08:00

School starts tomorrow. Wish we had longer weekends. Dislike going to school now cause i don't feel like facing someone ): .....

Rotting at home .

2010-04-10T22:56:00.001+08:00

This is dedicated to baby. <3

Indecisive .

2010-04-10T16:17:00.008+08:00

Really disappointed with myself.

Follow your heart :D .

Have learnt a lot of stuffs through my brother :}

Went to spring this morning to fix some stuffs and saw a cute blue hippo mascot, so i asked if i could take a picture with him! So damn cute okay :}

Went mcd to have mcflurry. Berries so yummy lor :D .
Then went to sarawak club for lunch. Saw the dancers there. The food sucked, compared to the previous time i ate there, i think it was few years ago :X . The rice was like so hard and the meat was still cold. I miss the old taste!! Now i don't ever wanna eat there anymore :[

I guess what matters most now is to stay happy :) I'm fine.

Dear Happy Birthday !

2010-04-06T18:04:00.003+08:00

Dearie, Happy 17th Birthday :) . I can't be like everyone else, who could celebrate their boyf's birthday together. But i hope you know how much i want to celebrate with you. Dear, promise to surprise you this may alright? :D Today shall be a happy day k? Don't feel so tied up! You ought to be happy. Spend time with you later. Hope you had fun today :} ! Remember that i'm always here for you =) .

Love,
Me :)

Live like we're dying.

2010-04-03T17:03:00.002+08:00

I wanna feel free.

Don't ever wanna lose you :)

2010-04-02T00:24:00.004+08:00

Exam finally ended today. History paper was hard for me though :( . I think i'm gonna fail. I don't know. Anyways, it's over. After school, went back home & showered. Went to Clau's house after that. We went to spring together with cyn :D Vis helped the 6 of us book tickets for Clash of the titans 3D. To me, the movie was quite nice, so exciting but pretty short, abit unexpected. I thought it would last for about 2 hours, but ended up 1 hour plus only. Feel like watching the lovely bones. The trailer seemed nice, may be tomorrow ? :DD

Talked to dear for a while just now, i missed him so much (!) . He's going overseas tomorrow, so we won't be able to contact much, but he's bringing his lappy there so we can skype! :D hehe. He's rushing on his pw too. Jy dearie. Don't forget to think of me okay ? :} .
I think i need to repair my camera soon, it keeps having file error.
Didn't have enough sleep for the past few days.. Gonna sleep now, past midnight alre! :)

2010-03-31T18:04:00.004+08:00

This girl is so pretty . i love her hair , i want my hair like that :D

Wee, last day of exam tomorrow :) History and maths paper. Hmm, i always have difficulty sleeping every night now, & i'll feel embarrassed if i say the reason. Paranoid me :( It's seriously haunting me. I remember going to bed at 11 plus last night and ended up sleeping at 1am instead cause i had to distract myself from thinking about it. Sad max :( Hope i will feel better. I don't feel well right now :/
Okay no time to blog alr :D , bye!

Laziness .

2010-03-28T20:19:00.009+08:00

Hello, exam started 3 days ago. Physics paper tmr :O Only 2 chapters and i'm alr dead confused. I need tuition :(

Chocs from universal studio .

4 More days till exam's over :) Can't wait.
Xiong got me addicted to run devil run by SNSD, the song is darn catchy ! :D HAHA.
Dear's out again. :( I miss him lots. Ok off to study! Hope when he comes back, i can talk to him. (:

2010-03-26T18:02:00.009+08:00

Tumblr : link

2010-03-23T06:55:00.012+08:00

Tiring day today. Why are sch days so tiring & depressing? ._. I feel so stressed. Thought of dropping ict cause i don't think i can make it, so hard for me. It's only adding on to my burden :( . We did nothing for 3 periods in ict just now. All i did was watch Glee with Clau and talked all the way. Mad boring. The guys were playing cs as usual. LOL I think chocs really make girls feel wonderful :) So buy chocs for your girlf when they pms! It really helps. :/

Tired :(

Until you .

2010-03-21T22:46:00.005+08:00

Last day of holiday today. Really dislike going to school :( , Brain sorta rusted LOL. Exams starting really soon and i haven't started studying. :( I just know i spent lots of time with baby this week. So happy ! He just offed. I miss him alr :/ I'm not done with sch work yet but i'm too tired to finish plus i don't have any strength to do alr, i rather sleep.. Went to see the doctor yesterday. At night, i went for the High School Idols finals too. Great singers with awesome voices :) , but who won? Cause i left before the winner was announced. Today's our anni. Happy 15th anni Dearie ! I'm sure we'll last longer than this. So glad i could spend time with you today :) Starting tomorrow, we can't talk much already :( ! I will miss your voice and i'm sure you will too ? :) Really can't wait to see you in Mayyy. I get to spend more time with you again, do you know how much i miss you teasing me ? :D I love you baby.

Going to sleep now as the med is making me drowsy. Nights :)

Leo Anniversary .

2010-03-14T20:08:00.006+08:00

Went for Leo Anni during the afternoon. Before that, i went to Cyn's house to collect sweets & Suria's ticket as Cyn is not going. She have fever :( . Reached there early as there was rehearsal. I don't think i sang well during the performance though :/ . Anyways it was fun la, especially when your friends are there for you. & Florence sang really really well :D

Tried to take pics for Cyn :) !

Larry and Chung .

After the event, Went to Causeway Bay :D

Thanks Ben for sending me & yeo wen home :) Hope to buy a cam soon !
Waiting for dear to come back :(

This mv is really sad . :(

Catch me before i fall .

2010-03-13T20:18:00.009+08:00

Woke up at 7 today! :) So early right. Skyped with dear when he woke up. So happy to hear his voice! Haha. Went into audi, so many new songs & there's a playlist now :D But i'm inactive already so yea.

Had rehearsal today at CMC. :} It's so hard for me to sing the tune exactly, cause there's harmonization behind, hope i can catch up & don't go out of tune lor. Practiced for 1 hour plus, then met up with Clau to eat ice cream at Dessert Paradise ! I love the ice cream there, nom nom :D

Sin chan crackers , :X

This is so freaking nice ! :D

Ordered some pepper chicken and it was super spicy my lips swollened like hell :( .

Went One TJ & walked around. Went Sugarbun and had dinner, HAHA. I'm sure i gained a lot of weight today. After that, Clau followed me home till her mum picks her up :} .

Kay, have performance tmr, Have to study too. :D Now skyping with dear. Happy happy , Byee ! Have a nice weekend , :D

You & me ,

2010-03-12T17:52:00.002+08:00

Have not been blogging for a few days. Was busy with school, homeworks and rehearsal. There's a rehearsal tonight at crown square, but i don't think i'll be going cause of tuition replacement, and i don't wanna postpone it again :( . Finally friday, hols starts today, so happy :D :D But there's lots of homework & after hols, exams will start, so i won't be enjoying ? :(

Blog tomorrow , Off to bathe now, bb :3

We'll be a dream .

2010-03-06T23:07:00.008+08:00

If only we can take control of our lives, so we would feel so free that nothing can stop us from doing what we want to do, from choosing our own paths. If only we can take control of the world, like it's all we have to hold on to. If only every sacrifices we did for love would be worth it.

I don't want to feel this way.

Moving on .

2010-03-02T21:26:00.009+08:00

School have been damn tiring. Return home from school 5pm everyday. I finally cleaned my room! So happy :D

Clean right ! :x

I miss my sister. Hope everything is well for her now. I would sigh once in a while..guess i still feel awkward being alone :( Today was quite bad. Teacher told us our results for assessment tests. Yep, i failed physics :/.. A lot of people failed too, but hope to do better for first term. Thanks dear for being by my side, supporting me and to cheer me up, i really felt much btr alr :) !

Skyped with dear last night. He seemed busier after entering jc and his cca trainings. Hope he still have time to pei me bah, cause i miss him badly. I miss him bullying me :( ! Faster weekends please, it's only the time i wanna look forward to now cause then, dear will have time to pei me ^-^''

Perfect Girlfriend .

2010-02-28T14:24:00.004+08:00

Reblogged from Xuan's blog. I found this pretty true :) .

What is a perfect girlfriend? They say there’s no such thing as perfection, and that she doesn’t exist.

She dresses up all cute and pretty every time you take her out on a date. This is her way of keeping you interested as your eyes are locked solely on her. You stare at other girls instead, and she gets hurt and upset that all her time and effort were put to waste. You call her insecure.

She holds on to you like she’s never letting you go. This is her way of telling other girls that she’s lucky that she has you, and no, you’re not available. You call her clingy.

She calls you the sweetest nicknames, or ones that only you two will understand. This is her way of saying how special you are, and that there’s nobody else in this world like you. You call other girls “babe” just as how you would call her, and she gets disappointed. You call her shallow and jealous.

She checks up on you, making sure you made it home safely or that you’re not out getting yourself into any kind of trouble. This is her way of showing how often she thinks about you and that she worries constantly because that’s how much she cares. You say she’s nagging.

She cries when you do or say something wrong. This is her way of saying “That hurt only because YOU said it and I love YOU.” You call her overly sensitive and emotional.

She loves you more than you love her. This is her way of dealing with the fact that your relationship wasn’t like how it used to be, but she is willing to make room for more love and some changes. You push her away. You call her dramatic and annoying.

So go ahead. Leave the insecure, clingy, jealous, nagging, overly sensitive, annoying girl.

She will soon be much happier in the arms of someone who actually deserves her:
the perfect boyfriend.

You won my heart .

2010-02-27T14:45:00.006+08:00

Look what i've found in the mail today! My belated vday card from baby. He mailed it here :D .

There's a letter behind too :D . So adorable ! Hehe. Thanks baby. ♥

A day with love .

2010-02-26T22:36:00.019+08:00

Finally over with the assessment tests. Not really looking forward for my results ):

Today's weather was blazing hot. It's a public holiday & i would probably be waking up late in the morning, but we're gonna take pictures for our coursework @ Pibakat, had to reach there before 8.50 am. It was fun, especially when we were washing cars :D

My phone died out in the morning , so i couldn't message baby the whole day. Good luck for your cca and training tmr k ? :) Sorry for today . Forgive me ? :( ♥

Florence .

My darlings :3

Car washing :

Claudia .

We found out we had the same pants , me & cyn :D ( twins ) .

Melissa :D ( tired faces ) .

This photo damn funny LOL . We were fooling around , dancing to ring ding dong by SHINee :X Didn't even realise this photo was taken.

I left in the middle of the event, felt so bad, cause i really felt like resting. D: so went back to Clau's house. Showered there and bought bubbletea ♥ & fetched cyn, siang & chung back to Clau's house again. Played with her puppy! It was so cute , i want one too D: After that we came back to Pibakat for the evening performances :D ! It was awesome. Chung was the emcee that night.

Going to buy a new cam soon. Want a cheap & good one :D !

Happy Anniversary .

2010-02-22T00:33:00.006+08:00

pjs ._.

Stole it from Nel's thumblr lol ;x ! So cute

Today's Our ♥ 14th Month Anni ! It's past 12 midnight already , so actually it was yesterday then? HAHA don't feel sleepy at all, that's why i'm not sleeping yet. Still thinking of him :} Although i was angry at him last night cause he never texted me back for 6 hours :( , Took med and straight went to sleep feeling drowsy.. Didn't text him also :P . Left my phone in silent mode. When i woke up today, i checked my phone and there were so many messages aswell as miss calls. My msn was left on the whole night, so i checked it also. So many messages & he slept at 4 cause he punished himself Haha so cute :x . Dear, i hope you know that when i don't show my feelings towards you doesn't mean i don't care at all :] . Don't angry at me le k ? i love you. Off to bed now.

You make me feel so amazing being with you .

2010-02-19T13:54:00.011+08:00

So we sent my sister off on the 17th. ): Before that, we went to Old Town White Coffee at the airport for breakfast. Not long after that, Zu arrived.

The nasi lemak tasted pretty normal. :O I couldn't finish it. HAHA.

I saw Zu shivering saying it was cold. She looked so cutee LOL.

:P

The egg looks funny :x

Anyways, my sis was gone few minutes after that.. :(

Yesterday, went to Spring and met up with Chung, Cyn, Shake, Clau, Vis & Jw. Watched Lightning Thief at MBO. The movie was nice, wanna watch it again, LOL :x Saw Zu after the movie ended. Her seat was just right infront of my row. Poked her! HAHA :3 Craved for milktea, but i couldn't drink as i was sick. Ate at Food Bazaar. After that, Clau and i bought matching bracelets together. Cheaap! :D

And then i went home..

Assessment test is on the 24th and 25th. I'm not studying yet. :( Hope i don't fail any and pass all of the papers. Tatas.

I still have creeps since the day i slept alone w/o my sister. Whenever she's sleeping with me, i'd prefer offing all the lights to sleep but still we sleep with lights on everynight. So eversince she left, i started sleeping with the lights on. That feeling reminds me of her sleeping beside me & that i won't feel like i'm all alone ..

Farewell .

2010-02-18T11:10:00.007+08:00

Currently at home right now. Sis flew off yesterday to further her studies. I'm not ashamed to say i miss her already. Although we quarrel many many times, there'll always be this connection between us that can never be broken apart. It's weird coming home and entering our room without her presence. Just empty now..Her stuffs are gone too. I don't have anyone to talk to at night anymore or shed my tears with, even when she doesn't care lol ! :') At least i knew there was someone there & that's always ready to help me. She was the closest to me in my family and who knew most of my secrets. I knew she understood me even when she acts like she didn't. Probably i took her for granted, that i only start to feel like i didn't cherish her enough when she's alr gone. Sis, i wish you all the best there, & study hard. Good luck with everything.. Thanks for everything, really :)

Yesterday morning when i was on bed sleeping, you asked me for the last time if i will miss you. I tried not to cry but my heart told me i will miss you lots and lots. My eyes teared.. :[

2008

2009

2010

We may not be the best sisters, but we're one of a kind. Loves. :') !

2010-02-15T22:31:00.003+08:00

I wasn't feeling well since yesterday. Still having flu and cough. I'm sure no one likes to get sick during cny. Hope to get well soon. I feel so horrible i can't sleep yet. Today went Pizza hut, Relatives house, Gertrude's, Kfc, Cyn's house. Home. Gamble :D . Ate so much today HAHA. :x

Haha don't laugh tq :D

Claudia.

I'll end my post here. Feeling so tired alr. Going bed soon :D

2010-02-14T00:44:00.008+08:00

Happy CNY and Valentine's day all ! Have fun with your love ones and family / friends. I basically spent my whole day at home today. Had reunion dinner with family and decorated the house :D ! The atmosphere is really noisy, firecrackers everywhere. It feels so nice though LOL.
It's always noisiest after midnight. 2010 is a brand new year for everyone. As for me, i plan to change my lifestyle & achieve good results.

Happy Valentine's day Dearie..Though i'm not there to celebrate it with you, but i know that you're always right beside me. I'm sure we'll get to spend it with each other soon. Hope you're not too disappointed :( . Jiayou in everything, alright? :} . I heart you deeply. Thanks for everything. Sotong dear is loveed :]

Feels super tired now, can't wait for tomorrow. Nights all :D .

2010-02-11T19:20:00.003+08:00

I'm giving you attitude right now...Sigh. I'm not good enough for u.

2010-02-10T22:29:00.011+08:00

School was fun today. Bio was interesting, haha :) But addmaths was confusing for me ! There's tons of homework for addmaths, 102 questions. My brain cells will die :( Had steamboat for dinner at Riverside just now. The view was really nice.

I rarely touched my books today, i had no mood for anything. I want this feeling to stop :[

Life is so fraglie, anything may happen overnight.. so appreciate what life has to offer. :)

Thanks vis and clau . :)

2010-02-09T19:49:00.007+08:00

Wishing for the weekends to come faster :[ I don't feel good these few days. I keep getting angry / moody when things don't go my way. Pmsing i think? Lol. I feel like sleeping right now ! I gave up my addmaths hmwrk. I can't think already :[ Don't know what's wrong. Probably will continue my other homeworks later :) Plan to stay back after school from today onwards, going home 5 pm everyday le. Today received credit for free. I think someone reloaded wrongly and ended up into my phone. LOL. Hope the dancing for PBKT is still on , as i really feel like performing something. I want holidays to come faster pleasee !

I don't feel good at all, aaah ! :( I'm trying hard to smile no matter how horrible i feel. Who likes to be with someone feeling so emotional and unhappy ?

2010-02-06T12:32:00.000+08:00

2010-02-04T22:04:00.004+08:00

Right now it's 10.04 pm. You're currently at camp. The last message from you was in the morning before i head off to school. It has been 15 hours since then. Where are you now? Are you sleeping already? Are you tired? I want to hear your voice badly, i want to know how's camp for you so far.. I want to tell you that i missed you the whole day. Have you been thinking of me? Take care of yourself kay? I hope you're enjoying yourself as much as how i want you to :) I know i've hurt you for not replying your messages few days ago. I was hurt too, you know? May be this camp could help you forget those disheartened stuffs and let them go. I'm selfish dear. I hope you know that. I'll wait till saturday, till you finish camp :) 2 more days.. It just feels awkward not talking to you for so long. Guess i finally knew how you felt the way i treated you. I'm sorry.

I'll be waiting for your message honey.
I just want you to know that i'm fine and i forgive you for what happened. <3

2010-02-03T21:30:00.004+08:00

Oral tomorrow. Bio test tomorrow.
& I haven't done addmaths and other homeworks yet.
I feel so tired.

Whenever i wanna talk to you .. you're not there.
Whenever i don't feel like talking , you're there ..

Can i believe you ?

2010-02-03T16:10:00.007+08:00

If only you didn't send the wrong message to me. I don't know why i'm so badly affected too. And this was the first time i felt this way. If you didn't send it to me by accident, did you think i would find out? Were you going to do it without me knowing?.. Only after you did it, you explained to me. What if i actually read those messages myself? What will they be like? I'm so hurt. I really am.

2010-01-26T17:42:00.004+08:00

Had pe today, i seriously wanted to faint after running for 5 minutes. My muscle pained like hell. I never felt my muscle so painful before, must be cause i rarely exercise. Claudia piggybacked me back to class. LOL. We actually got scolded not to do it again. :x Thanks Claud, you're such a good friend :D ♥ I can't understand Physics. It's so complicated. :( Am i just not suitable for science stream after all? Something happened today, i was badly hurt, but hope i can get over it soon :)
Claudia helped me tie a bun in sch today :] I'm so random, i know!

Kay. She's coming to my house to study later. Byebye :}

2010-01-24T22:35:00.006+08:00

Very very tired today. Went to Claudia's house in the afternoon to complete our homework together.
But we didn't finish cause most of the time we were talking :x HAHA.
I'm so scared of tests.. :/
Having a hard time doing history essay. I didn't bring home my note book.
I'm so dead right now ._.

I keep having my hair cut and i don't know why. Sooner or later, i think my hair would end up really short.

2010-01-23T23:32:00.011+08:00

Got woken up by Claudia & Cyn's call @ 10 am. LOLS, i was soo sleepy,
i didn't even think i could wake up de lo.

Today went to Spring for Suria's farewell. :( There were a lot of people there.
Met up with Joshua, Kim, Claudia and Melissa somewhere while walking.
Mel, Claud and i went to search for Landa's birthday present at first. Mel & i bought bubbletea at kokoberry HAHA ♥

At F.O.S. with Mel :D

Claudia and her boyf :) Sweet eh.

I heart korean style .

At MNG. HAHA.

Met Ellora halfway so we all went to walk around & went to eat.
But then she gtg, so i became the only light bulb again? :/ !

Lamb chop @ Food Bazaar

Then the 3 of us walked around after we ate. I felt like a lightbulb that shined so brightly D;
Awhile later, Alvis and Claudia went home le.
Then 9 of us followed Shawn's car to Landa's house for her bday party.

Kim & vivi.

Went home early as i didn't fell well.

Today was the last day i saw Suria.
Take care in kl alright :) ? We will miss you. Stop saying you handsome! LOL.
Or else when you return, i'm gonna chop your head off :x

Overall it was a very tiring day for me.
When i reached home just now, i was so scared as my eyes were so itchy after removing contacts.
I thought that i was gonna have eye infection or something .. Can't stop itching them.
After i rested a while, like for half an hour, no more red eye already :) !

2 days ago was our 13 monthsary. I'm so glad to have you dear,
Can't believe we made it to 13 months. Went through all the thick and thins.
Just want you to know that i think of you every single day :)
I won't leave you, because i know i can't.. You're already carved all over my heart dearie.
Even if i had to, it won't be that easy.
i love you.

2010-01-18T21:44:00.010+08:00

School has been really really boring nowadays.
Cause the topics are getting harder and harder,
And sometimes i couldn't get what the teachers were talking.. so confusing.
Kept yawning in class, so sleepy.
Guess i didn't have enough sleep for the past few days. Always had difficulty sleeping -.-
Went Crowning glory to cut my hair just now and treatment too.
So it's much curlier than my previous hair .. lol , my hair dye is gone already ._.
Gonna dye it back again some day Lol , hopefully this week. I like the colour :x

Cny is coming and also valentines day ! :) Looking forward to it.
I miss dear. He injured his finger again! Told me he would take care of himself le,
in the end, he got himself injured again. Lol See la ._.
I'm not there to take care of you, you know that, so please take care of yourself :(
It aches if something bad happened to you, whether it's a small matter or not.

3 More Days .

I keep hurting people .. Don't know why either . May be it's cause i changed ? idk .

2010-01-17T20:16:00.014+08:00

Went Spring yesterday with Siang, Chung, Ken, Ellora, Kim, Suria, Shawn, Cyn, Yeowen, etc. :D
Watched the spy next door, it was super funny! (: HAHA. Laughed most at the end of the movie.
Something bad happened in the cinema yesterday.
I made a small girl cry cause i accidentally knocked her drink down :(
I wanted to gave her my drink but it was alr too late .. Felt so awful and bad.
Anyway, Kenric, have fun at Aussie okay? We're all gonna miss you for sure, especially your jokes and also, thanks for the choc ( although you melted it already ) LOL keep in touch k. D;

Internet is being really slow since yesterday.. Don't know what's wrong.
Makes me feel so irritated everytime i wanna come online -.-

Bling-ed my stationeries just now to kill time. Was so bored .. Haha .
Dear called me just now. So happy after hearing his voice :}
He's watching The orphan now, he rather watch tv than skype with me D:
Curse him scared so that he won't dare to watch horror movies alr HAHA ! Unless with mee ♥
I miss him lots ! Silly dear, why make me so addicted to you :'( ?

MIA in audition so my acc is currently inactive, i'll still play when i have time :}

4 more days dear !

2010-01-11T20:24:00.009+08:00

First day of the week today ! :} School work has been keeping me busy almost everyday.
But at least i get to skype with baby once in a while & there's time to relax LOL .
If not it'll be hell ._. imagine studying the whole day w/o doing anything else .
Moved to class 4B today. Thank goodness i don't have to climb so many steps, unlike 4D, haha :x
My place was right at the front, beside Cyn :} ! .
I think the teachers here are much better and funnier . LOL

I am so tired ~.~ i wanna talk with dear but he's out :{ .

2010-01-08T17:28:00.005+08:00

Finally weekends ! :) can slack abit after tiring days in school thank god -.- .
Seriously , never felt so tired every night before .. until recently ? Tons of work D:
Today quarreled with dear about some minor things ,
which was so not worth quarreling about , i think :/
Giving in to something you don't feel like , is really hard .
And saying sorry when you really wanna mean it , is difficult too .
Whenever you say sorry for the sake of it , you won't even feel a thing .
But when you have to really say as you mean it , it's not easy ._.
Dearie , thanks for giving in all this while .
I admit i was angry at you for not listening to me .
May be it's cause i simply care for you and your health as well .
Don't sleep so late again :/ .. alright ?

2010-01-07T17:10:00.005+08:00

Today's 4 day in school , i don't really like it ,
despite having friends to talk to and having fun lessons .
Add math was really complicated , but dear taught me easy steps & formulae to remember ,
so i can understand better now :) .
To me , form 3 and 4 are two totally different things .
And it takes a long time to get used to learning new stuffs ..
I'm moving class on Monday cause of ICT , Vivian too ♥ .
Hope it would end up better than my class now , cause i was the one who chose to go there :/ .
Anw , I think my health rate is going from bad to worst ._.''
My energy is so limited ;diao . And i miss deaaar ! :(

2010-01-05T17:57:00.005+08:00

Few weeks ago, had bbq gathering at yeo wen's house, i think some time after christmas ?
Forgot alr. hahha, but it was fun, i was a lil sick though, went home early too. (:

Her addictive swing :D .

Nearly same height ok :'( ?

They said i posed like a queen =x , hahaa.

ignore my face T.T .

Jesher's '' sexy '' pose ? -.- HAHA

His cool t-shirt !

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Dearie came to find me on the 31st of Dec till 4th Jan ( the day i start school ) .
It was so sudden and i was super happy , couldn't believe it ,
Cause we met less than 2 weeks ago and he wanted to see me again !
Smiled really big when i fetched him from the airport , hugged him :D
& thanks kaila , for accompanying me when i was nervous :/
Baby's g.parents were friendly too, his grandma gave me a gift , i find it really cute haha !
Took cab to his hotel , not bad , quite nice , better than his previous one of course ! LOL

Glad to have spent so much time with him as we know when school starts ,
we won't be able to spend so much time together again , thanks for coming and find me dearie :)

01 / 01 / 10 :) .

I wasn't squeezing his neh ok , dearie anyhow say x.x

Remembered going out with zu to harts . Baby missed the fried chicken there :/ HAHA !
He ate a lot , i've never seen him ate so much before ! Nvm, It was cheap anyway :D
Went bowling after that , i didn't strike at all .. But that's okay , Dear striked so many times ! Bully one :(
Then he followed me home and we spent time at my house , watched movie , etc.

Next day , dearie came over to my house again and went to spring with my sis in the afternoon to watch avatar .
After we booked the tickets , went down to shop and dearie bought a top , super ex ! But it was nice :D .
Too bad they didn't have M size , but L still looked pretty nice on him :)
Avatar was a nice movie but it was too long , i sat till my pigu tong -.- .
I accidentally scratched dear during the exciting part , i'm sorry :(

On the last day we met , he didn't feel well . But dear , thanks for buying food and drink for me .
He bought the tiramisu cake and ice blended oreo we shared at Hilton that day . Thanks baby :)

I admit i didn't want him to leave but i can't stop him right ? He had to ..
I should be happy instead of being sad . Happy cause i was fortunate enough to have spent so many days with him already . Sad cause the next time we meet would be many many months later ..
It hurts , but i'm sure we can pull this through till we can meet everyday next time.
All the waiting will be worth it , i'm sure , as long as he promise to stay by my side , always :)
When we were in the car , sending him back to his hotel , he was sitting on the front seat ,
and i sat at the back . I stared at him from behind and my tears started to fall ..
My heart clearly told me , that i will miss him .
Being in a relationship isn't easy , but being with him , is the happiest thing that happened to my life . Whatever sacrifices i have to take , will pay off in the end , cause i know .. that he's the guy i want to spend my entire life with , i won't regret it . I love you dear :)

2009-12-25T13:27:00.006+08:00

23rd Dec was my sis' birthday :) Happy Birthday, sis. Eventhough we quarreled a lot, we'll still forgive each other at the end, right? Thanks for everything that you've done for me. You're officially seventeen now~ :)

Freaking yummy choc cake from Tom's!

24th Dec i collected my results in the morning. Cheer up to those who are still upset over their results. We should be proud of them instead ma. :D

Had a potluck xmas party in the evening! I brought ice cream, and lora & Kim baked a choc cake. :D ! There was kfc, pizzas, curry, etc. ! :)

Played twister! hahha. :3

Had water fight too, hahah . But i got cold so i stopped playing half way. Lora, Kim and i got abit mad ;x

LOL @ the retarded faces ! . :D

I don't have many photos, cause my phone died during the water fight :/ , hahah!
Watched Jennifer's body at night, some of the scary parts the guys made it funny Lol !

25th Dec is christmas day, which is today! M e r r y C h r i s t m a s all :3 .

Just had my max ring love party at 12.25 pm just now. Passed on Second try, 13 hearts if i'm not wrong ? :) Grats dear, max ring alr ! Finally no more tagging :( ! So happy, haha.

Love you dearie ♥ .

2009-12-22T19:52:00.002+08:00

I'm finally back from Singapore. I actually didn't chose to blog out what happened, cause i know those days that baby and i shared were impossible to put into words, but i'll try. It's definitely going to be a very very long post lo :) . All i know is those were the days that baby and i got closest to each other & i loved the moments we shared ♥
I remember skyping with him before going off to the airport that day & we were talking happily :)

I looked happy right? :]

When i reached sg, i rushed to hug baby when i saw him at the hotel lobby :D somehow i didn't felt short beside him le, haha ! don't know why. The qiao thing is that he wore a black top, white pants and white shoes and i wore the same :) We went to eat at some cafeteria and went OG with my mum. Bought two tops and baby bought one :D he kept pulling my hoodie over my head and poke me lor! Stupid dear! I remember he kept saying that angmos damn hot or seducing bla bla.. :( purposely make me jealous :( I kept complaining i wanted to go back hotel quick cause my contacts felt very dry. When we reached, dear helped me put on eye drops so i could take them off easier. :3 Few hours later, he left le. :(

The next day we didn't meet much, only during the night, cause mum and i went shopping for our stuffs. I really didn't enjoy, i thought i loved shopping.. i guess it was cause i didn't get to see or spend time with dear bah, but it was ok :) When i got back to the hotel, i bathe and got ready. Then i decided to use the internet room to check my fb for awhile. Then dearie popped behind me, haha! He was wearing the top i bought for him! :D And as qiao again, he wore a white top, black pants and white shoes and i wore the same. ♥ Dear copy! haha ;x . We cabbed to east coast park, but then my mum didn't wanna eat there. Ended up we cabbed to taka and ate there. Hmm, went back hotel after that..then kissed till.. sis got back ? :x

On 19th, met up with dearie early in the morning. We wore our couple-t together. People stared but we didn't care? hhaa! (: Went Subway for breakfast. I couldn't finish eating :( I love the double choc cookie. Dearie, remember to buy for me again next time! :D Then we walked around plaza sing, wanted to look for a couple ring, but the shop wasn't opened yet, so we waited till around 11, the shop was still closed. So we cabbed to escape theme park first. We thought it was gonna rain, cause the sky was so dark. Went with dear on the pirate ship! It looked okay when people were playing it, until i sat on it! I nearly puked eh! I kept looking down. Then dear said i screamed louder than the girls sitting opposite. Kns, I smack you ah! D; And sorry dear, i scratched your hand by accident. Now got scar there le. Haha! But whenever you look at it, you will think of me right? hehe. C: We went into the haunted house afterwards. I kept screaming ._. lol. Wanted to play go-kart, but it drizzled and rained heavily. Tried some carnival games! Pretty lame but at least i won baby at some game and got a soft toy haha ! I wasn't feeling well and it was still raining so we cabbed back to plaza sing to find our ring. Walked to Cathay to see if got nicer ones and we bought our ring there and got it carved! i love it.. :) But i had to carry that soft toy wherever i go lols i don't mind if it's cute but it's not ma ._. ! Dear wanted to throw it away but idw ! How can you throw it away lah i smack you.. :{

Opened his present at night ! I was so touched ! Thanks dearie.

Guess what he wrote inside the whole book ? :x

:) overall was really happy that day.

On 20th, we went out early in the morning and went mac for breakfast. Dear ordered the big bfast & i ordered hotcakes w sausage. Yummy, but i didn't have a good appetite that day. I think it was cause of the pirate ship :( I kept watching dear eat, and realized how much he loves chilli LOL :X . I decided to go back to the hotel and bathe and dearie helped me wash my hair :) Spent time there for quite a few hours. Kissed on bed then secret alr ! Haha wished we could do it again :X Haha dear should know what i mean ba, no need to explain :/ Met up with some of the fam members at Eunos mrt for our outing. :D took the bus to ECP. Tio bullied in the bus and dear still laughed at me :( . But it was fun talking to them. When we reached ecp, dear said he booked the pit near mcd. Guess what, it wasn't near at all lor! Walked till legs nua liao ;x hahahh. We went to rent bikes. Dear and i rented the double seats one . Fun die , hahah cycle with them till we got really tired. We started to bbq in the evening. I didn't feel well at night. Felt like vomiting badly.. After returning the bikes, we had to walk back. I told dearie to walk first as i need to walk slower behind but he didn't listen, stubborn pigu. Lols ! He wanted to piggyback me and i didn't want to. Then he sounded fierce so i kept quiet le. Dear, don't be fierce infront of me again :'( While walking, my stomach really felt like dying -.- .. then dear looked for a place so i could rest awhile. Thanks dear. :) When we went back to our pit, i heard dear talking to his mum about smth, but it wasn't clear.. I saw people eating so happily, i wish i could too. I really hate myself for being sick that night. I didn't make baby enjoy the outing at all.. :( When i turned back, i couldn't find him alr. Then his mum said he went to find med for me. I went off to find him alone cause i wanted to see him. My stomach felt worst.. I called him and he nv ans. :( Thn while i was coughing, i heard someone asking me if i was okay or not. I turned back and saw garaa o.o . I never knew he was behind.. lol . Then when i continue walking i saw baby ! He was running. I saw him sweating like what D; Just to buy med for me, thanks dearie..was touched luh :) , then we walked back tgd ♥ Really enjoyed the scenery there with dear at night. :) when it was time to go home, he piggyback-ed me haha! so cute. He said i look so small but actually very heavy. Piack ni ah dearie! He must be really tired bah. Run here and there, then still need to carry a pig like me :( . Sorry for troubling you baby.

On the last day, i was very upset. May be cause i didn't wanna leave bah. Talked to baby about some stuffs at the lobby before going off to the airport. Tear-ed a lot.. :( I remember my dad said something funny about me and he jitao spilled out his coffee LOLS ! Funny luh :D !

Our heart ♥

Dearie, thanks for the lovely 5 days. I really really enjoyed myself. Thanks for taking care of me when i didn't feel well :) I was really touched. I miss you a lot right now, i really wanna see you again. It is torturing not seeing you :( . But we promised each other to bear this together right? And the ring was our agreement. We won't leave each other okay? Thanks for supporting me, making me think positive all the while. We must be strong k dearie? i love you dear! :)

2009-12-17T11:09:00.003+08:00

Going to sg today & meeting dear :D Few more hearts to max ring ! Jiayou dear :)
And 4 more days to our 1 year ♥

Loveyou babyyy.

2009-12-15T21:24:00.009+08:00

Didn't go for work today. I didn't even want to open my eyes this morning.
My head was spinning and i still felt so exhausted.
Went out with Kend & Kim to find presents in the afternoon.
Kim wanted to look for christmas presents for her family,
while i wanted to look for baby's present as a one year gift.
Was rather upset for some reason and didn't manage to buy a present for him.
Today was a really unlucky day, as i broke a photframe's glass and had to pay for it.
I didn't pay a lot, but i just wasted money on something i didn't want to pay for -.-

Kim bought marshmallows to cheer me up :) .
We actually planned to watch either Zombieland or Couples retreat,
but couldn't cause they found out we were under 18 aww :(
After that we went to Kokoberry and bought stuffs to eat and drink.
I ate very messily and kim eats very slowly hehe. Kend just watched us eat lol ! :X
Then we went to buy chocolate fondue. The strawberry ones are nice & cold :) .
Kend didn't like it but me and kim ♥s it :D
Since we couldn't find our presents, we decided to head home. :(
So went back to Kend's house instead, since we could watch a movie there while waiting for our parents to pick us up.

His guinea pigs are so cute haha ! So white right ?

We decided to go out and buy snacks, and walked pass friendship park.
There were snacks sold there, so we bought them and went back. :D

Watched Australia ♥ it was a very long and sweet movie :) !
And we ate dinner at his house. Borrowed some movies from him too.
I love hanging out with them. :3

Gonna search for a present again tomorrow and going out with sissy.
Gonna buy a santa hat just for the christmas party :}
Nights all.

I guess it was my fault for telling you last minute. It's not that i don't mean what i say. You made me felt so tied up somehow. I thought you wouldn't mind me going out and not tagging for a while, but seemed like it mattered to you a lot .. but it didn't for me. WHY ? Why is it that everytime i wanna do something else, i would always think that you would be angry at me and then change my mind straight away ? Am i that scared of you getting angry or sad because of me ? Am i supposed to feel this way everytime ? AM I ?

I'm so tired alr ! Fml .

2009-12-11T23:16:00.002+08:00

2009-12-08T19:57:00.008+08:00

I don't have any motivation to do anything right now other than tagging i guess? i don't know why. May be cause i've been tagging for quite a while alr, & it's what i should do? LOL idk. I'm tired. I thought i have lots of things to blog about, but i don't think i do anymore. So this post is gonna be really short o: ? Sometimes i feel like i'm a very selfish person to most people, right? Am i really? :( . Sometimes i really regret making my own choices, cause i always end up making wrong ones. I really wished i've listened to my friends' advises before, but anws it's too late. And baby, sorry for lying to you the other day. I tried to tell you. but you found out about it earlier than i expected. Sorry :) .

During your shower, you put on shampoo. So you close your eyes shut and you try as fast as you can to rinse off the shampoo cause it's like a ghost is watching you :( .

( I find this darn true ! Hahah , guess i'm not the only one feeling this :P )

I don't mind being hurt .

2009-12-04T00:39:00.006+08:00

2009-12-02T13:59:00.003+08:00

Went cyber yesterday. Tried several games that i never played before like L4d & Sdo.
Kinda fun, haha i screamed when i was shooting zombies & i heard ppl laughing. D;
Then went Starbucks to buy fraps and slacked there. :)
Waited for Kend's driver to pick us up to Bdc. Went bowling for the first time !
Haha, wanted to try it out. It was so fun :D I striked a few times! Kend always won though.

After that, they came to my house and we watched scary movie.
That movie really didn't make any sense lor -.- . A lot of censored parts.
We ordered pizza w/ pepsi for dinner. So full. :D

Tagged hearts till so late last night, but baby was there to pei me talk :)
Thanks ♥ i love talking to you and hear your laughs.
Love it when you do stupid sounds / actions. It can make my day~

Hoping to watch ninja assassin at mbo tmr. Heard it was quite nice :)

2009-11-30T20:38:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, when you can't control your temper or anger, what do you do? Scream to your pillow? Slam things around? And what do i do? I choose to blog it out. I vent my anger that way cause it's freaking simple. It won't hurt anyone nor will i hurt myself. So what if my "angry" posts seems childish? By one post or even more, you judged me by my character? Wtfbbq. You don't even know me by person so just keep your mouth shut? Okay.. it hurts. When people ask you not to care about what others say or think about you, can you do it? I doubt that the person who told you not to care, won't get affected at all? Not everyone is capable enough to let these kind of things pass them by. Whether we're hurt or not, we, ourselves know it best. So i often said 'Say what you want about me, i won't care anymore.' Well, i lied and i do care, a lot about what other people think of me :) I've been judged so wrongly about myself, that's the reason why i'm posting this.

Nevertheless, just stop assuming one's personality through a blog post or stuffs like that. Sometimes they don't mean what they say as people will do stupid things out of anger.

P/s: Changed back my tagboard to Cbox. Shoutmix loads too slow. -.-

2009-11-27T12:24:00.006+08:00

Went Spring yesterday .
The early ones were kim , vivi and me .

We went starbucks then went food bazaar to eat hotplate :x .

Shoes :D

Watched new moon at mbo after that . 18 of us :3 .

it was so nice and funny , haha . sweet tooo ! :)

After that , went sushi king with Jesher , Arthur , Vivi & kim .
Cos Kim felt like eating HAHA ! It cost a bomb :( .
Then i bought big apple doughnuts for mum and went homeee .

Went vocal class at night , i kept laughing . Had funn :) !

Went home & tag hearts . Baby asked me to see his country story .
LOL i saw it and he plow-ed i love cin . Aw so sweet. Thanks baby . Touched :) ♥♥

Kk lunch time <3

2009-11-21T22:36:00.003+08:00

Take a breath , and away it goes .

Went vocal class on Thursday, it was fun :) .
Finally can proceed to a new song. I practised that song till sian already !

Today's Kim's Birthday. Happy B'day! Muacks :3 .
We gathered at Spring this afternoon. Her cake :

Oreo cheeseee :) .

Then we went to catch 2012 at MBO around 12.30pm.
The movie lasted for like so long, but totally enjoyed it. I rate it 5/5! :) .
I learnt to cherish every moment of my life caus' you'll never know when your life ends. ♥

:) Mine and viv's.

Today's also Our ♥ 11th Month anni <3 .
Really felt happy today. At least we didn't quarrel at all :) .
Don't wish to have anymore quarrels le, it's painful.
ily <3

2009-11-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

Awesome vid :) .

Wedding dress - Taeyang .

w/o you, i'd be no one .

2009-11-15T10:59:00.011+08:00

Hmm, i know i haven't been updating my blog for quite long alr?
Cause honestly, i didn't know what to blog about !
Unless you guys even bother to read about my feelings and stuff like that,
but i usually do that in my private blog here. :)
Quarreled a lot of stupid stuffs with baby recently, mostly about tagging.
It's always the same topic till we got sick of it. I really made him upset last night. :(
I'm sorry, alright? I didn't meant what i said. I think i was just grumpy or too tired ba.
Felt so useless. All i could do was cry, what else can i do? Can crying solve anything? .
Damn dumb, don't know how to treat my boyf well. Most of the time, he gave in and i didn't.
He consoles, apologises, tolerate, how about me? I didn't. All i did was? I just stood there doing nothing :( .
Anyway, it's better settling probs on phone. Never use virtual chat to sort things out, cause it might just turn out worst than before.

Anyways, dyed my hair dark brown few days ago. It's not that obvious.
Only can be seen under sunlight. I still like it cause it seems natural :D .
My eye bags are so obvious now. I think i look like a zombie, idk :o .

Messaged baby when i woke up, he asked me to go back to sleep!
Scared i grumpy then quarrel again ah? HAHA !
Guess i should get more sleep now. Later tio scold by that bodoh :( .

This is an update! :D

Niece: Cheer up okay! I don't wanna see you sad. Don't let your aunty worry alright! Stand up and move on. I know it's hard to get over him and it takes time, but time heals all wounds. Slowly ba. You will be okay de :} Be strong, ily. <3

2009-11-13T11:49:00.001+08:00

See it was enough to know ..
If I ever let you go,
I would be no one.
Cos I never thought I'd feel
All the things you made me feel
i wasn't looking for someone , until you .

2009-11-04T23:23:00.006+08:00

Attended prom night today! :) It was fun.
Went Cyn's house in the afternoon after i got dressed.
Make up, bla bla, hair. Didn't do anything much to my hair though :( .
The prom was held at Hilton, when we reached, we saw many fancy costumes :O
It was halloween themed. My cam was really blur so, couldn't take nice pictures.

An eyeball!

Let me scare you.

HAHA, boo. :B

Cyn and Josh. And Josh, your eye look like kena box like that. Lol -.-

There were many games too :)

Jesher. LOL. They were playing chubby bunny!

Freaking lazy to post up pics alr. I'll just put them together D:

Camwhore :D

Guess who's behind that mask? ;)

Freaky zombie :P

Lastly , footloose! It was awesome , everyone danced their heart out . ♥

Jesmond's leaving. Takecare dude. :(

Wei Huang's leaving. Hey, i remember you kept bullying me about your height. Whatever it is .. We were friends alright. Keep in touch , we will miss you .

Ken's leaving too.
Kenric, thanks for the things you've done for me throughout this year. Will definitely miss your lame jokes and yeah, tkcare when you go to aus. Just remember to keep in touch okay, pig. (:

I wanna sleep now. Tired, Goodnight everyone. <3

2009-11-03T17:42:00.007+08:00

Just reached home not long ago, then i saw baby facebook siao ! :o
LOLS Chiongster never die. Tsktsk. Cute si lah k, :)
Woke up 6 in the morning. Early die, only slept for 5 hours, lolol.
Reached Hx's house around 8 something. She was still sleeping !
And when his bro came out, surprisingly, he knew my brother. They were classmates. :)
After that we all went out to eat laksa, i was so hungry.
His brother's so hilarious. I kept giggling in the car x.x! Keep say he engtao HAHA.
Hx is so lucky to have such a brother la. They were like so happy ? :)
After that, i went to reload and then went vocal studio to sing !
I joined vocal class :) , also met a very good singer inside. Her voice is amazing.
Had fun in the studio and stuff, but i got tired really easily cause lack of sleep ! D;
When it was time to go home, hx asked me if i wanted to join jiaying at spring,
but i didn't cause too tired le, v.v

Okay, Off to sleep now ! :O . Buhbye.

2009-11-02T16:43:00.007+08:00

Watched a lot of horror movies these days. :) Addicted to movies le.
Kept playing facebook games too. LOLS. Addicted? Idk.
Sec 3 prom is coming soon. It's after tomorrow. Exciteedd.
Everyone will obviously look stunning & gorgeous :)
Hx just called and asked if i wanted to perform with her. Very last minute ley.
I'm gonna do hair with Cyn again like last year ! Haha. ♥
But what can i do with my hair now? It's already curled :( Just style bah i guess.
Can't wait for New Moon to release! I never read the book. Too lazy :/
Watching it on Kim's birthday :) .
Baby complained that i'm a pig cause i always wake up late.
Then when i woke up today, i saw 3 messages from him. He alr finished his ss paper!
HAHA. And i also didn't pray for him. Study 6 essays bo come out even 1, only came out the one he read through. LOLS ! Suay die. Tsk ! :x
He said he was busy battling and i was like on bed sleeping like a pig.
He's now sitting for Chem paper ii le. I pray for you le hor ben dan !
Better do well if not i chop you this apple down ! LOLS , ily <3 :D

2009-10-30T17:45:00.017+08:00

Thursday 29/10/09.
I workeed! :) :)

I received a very shocking news that day too :/ .

Was very difficult for me to sleep as something small happened at night.
And i didn't replied any of baby's messages. He knew i wasn't asleep and asked me to call him :o
I lied and said he woke me up..but at the end he found out the truth cause i told him, lols
Kept laughing. Thanks for cheering me up. ♥
Smiled to sleep at last. Only you can love me this way :)

Friday 30/10/09.
Cyn came to my house early in the morning, played a bit of facebook (:
Then i fetched her to my mum's office.
Watched some eps from Devil Beside you! So cute. I used to be crazy over that drama.
Then around 10 plus, we went to Crown square. ): Couldn't find the dress i wanted and she couldn't find a suitable present for her mum too.
Then we went Hock Lee. I found my dress and thanks Cyn for today. You made my day!
She found a nice present for her mum too. hahas nicee! Very exp too. Your mum will love it ;)
At last, we bought snacks home. While waiting for my dad to pick us up,
we saw a super cute puppy and we walked over to the owner and asked if we could take pic of her with it.
She asked us to hold them & take pics instead :D .

So damn adorable ! ♥

I want a puppy, but that's impossible. ):
Home sweet home after that. Feels so tired now.

Look at what kendrick did to baby's poohbear O:

It's holding siang's guitar ! LOL So cute :D

Btw guys, wb from KL, hehe. :)

Baby, hope you did well for today's amath paper. Sorry i replied your msg late.
Really enjoy talking to you everytime. Addicted to your voice alr. ilys :) ~

2009-10-27T19:48:00.002+08:00

Watched BBF recently. Nice drama.
This vid is darn sweet and cute :) .

2009-10-26T21:19:00.015+08:00

Friday 23/10/09.
Attended maths camp in school.
First activity was done by Mr Lim. I thought he was crazy, seriously wtf.
He was so boring as he kept repeating what he was saying.
He pronounced grasshoppers as glassloppers lolol.
Mr Lai's activity was ok. We were making shapes out of cards, like playing with puzzles.
Our group was fun, cause we made lots of cute animal shapes :D .
At last, Mr Tan's activity. Was wondering how come he was involved in maths camp,
when he's a science teacher? Anyway, we did pin mapping.
Andy brought a wrong hammer and it was like super big. LOL,
so he had a hard time nailing his nails. Aww. But i wasn't good in nailing,
and he kept laughing at me. -_- and kept boasting to me once he finished a phase.
I complaint that he bullied me. LOL. It was fun during the process, but i think i was slowest :( !

Monday 26/10/09.
Going to post 'cause today's a big day for baby! His o lvls starts today. :)
I'm sure he's prepared and he'll do well. So confident? Haha, don't know why either. :o
Anyways, this morning. Woke up late and washed up.
My internet was sot so i was late to go online when baby asked me to.
He said i was slow ! ;wild. Blame my paper comp k :x LOL.
Revised with him for his grammar this morning. Super funny please.
Swear he was darn cute when he answered my questions.
Laughed to the screen the whole time till my jaw hurts. Haha ! ♥
Later, he went to bathe and i called him for a while and talked.
Then i went to audi and wrote on the couple diary :) .
After that, he messaged me when he reached school & i replied him good luck.
I was afraid to watch horror movies at home alone,
So decided to go Cyn's house to watch with some other people instead.
Bought 3 packets of snacks and a bottle of coke to her house, watched The Orphan.
It was so scary. Wasn't horror but more to a violent type of movie. -.-
We watched G-Force too after that. So cute okay the guinea pigs ! Haha :D
Messaged baby around 4 plus, before his second paper. I was worried for him,
cause i remember how worried he was for today's paper.
Then i received his message after his exam ended. He said it was not bad.
I felt so happy for him ! Haha now he stress free le bah? Can slack alr.
Played audi for a while at Cyn's house. Went back around 6 plus.

Have fun in KL guys. :)

Happy 10th Month :D !

2009-10-21T15:44:00.017+08:00

Sorry if the pictures aren't that nice, baby. Tried my best alr. ):

HAPPY 10TH MONTH ANNI :)

Thanks for your surprises , hoho i found out le. xD
Despite the bad things that happened today, everything still went ok :D
I know we quarreled a lot these days.. but we didn't quarrel for nothing.
At least we learnt more about each other. I learnt that i should compromise more,
instead of letting you give in all the time. Feel really bad that i've done so many mistakes.
Sorry ): Apologizing for the bad things i've done to hurt you or made you sad.
Can we just go back like how we used to be in the past? I really miss it :') .
All the best for your practical exam tomorrow hor. I will pray for you d.

iloveyouu so :)
Meeting soon . ♥♥♥