Have you ever felt this way ? Most of the time i come across quotes and everytime i read them, i will never understand what it's trying to say. But now i actually get it. Because i've been patiently waiting for something that might never happen and it's getting harder for me to give up when it's everything i ever wanted to have.

I never thought that i could be so devoted to you, when i was the first who decide to give up on our rs, that was previously so strong. And now i'm trying to save it, but it i know nothing is gonna change what happened between us. I just told you that there's nothing we can do now but move on. You agreed and repeated what i said. Why does it hurt, knowing that after so long being together, at the end of the day we have to give up ? I blame myself, because i caused all this at first. I know that i've been very unreasonable throughout this relationship. I admit that i often have moodswings for no reason and tend to affect your mood nearly every single day. I thought giving us space for a little while wouldn't do any harm, but it certainly has. I was wrong. This space had worsen everything.

And now everything's gone. All the times we shared will remain as memories. You were the best for me, the person i cherished a lot :). I'm really sorry for what i've done. I'm sorry i couldn't hold to the promise. I now realize that it's too late to want you back. You once told me that i will regret if i gave up on this. You were right. I am.

I can't feel your bullying / teasing / naggings anymore. I miss that, a lot.
If it wasn't for me, we wouldn't have to feel this pain ..

Words can't explain how much ily. Thanks for everything.